Itty Bitty Portraits Blog

Only 2 days away is little miss Calli’s 5th birthday!  As I said in my last post, time has traveled quickly and left behind beautiful memories of my sweet Calli as a baby.  Now I get to look forward to many more fun days and next fall SCHOOL!  Who would have thought?  So I have seen on others blogs the story of how their little one came into the world, who knows if I will still have this blog when Calli can actually read and it’s documented in her baby book  but after delivering many, many, many, babies I have learned our birth storied mold us into the women we are and become ingrained into us forever.  So here is the story of Miss Calli…..

Have I told you how awful it is to be HUGLY pregnant and help a first time mom push for over 2 hours?  It’s no walk in the park honey!  So there I was in Laramie, trying to convince this young momma to push with all her might so I could actually get a pee break and sit down!  But… it wasn’t going as I had planned.  I looked at the physician I was working with and I thought, “that’s weird… It’s kind of black in my right eye, I don’t feel good, I really don’t feel good…..” then the kind Dr. K looked at me and must have knew something was up… brought me a chair and I sat down.  I was the only labor nurse on and we nurses get very possessive about our patients, I wasn’t going to leave the room, call in the call-nurse and have a complete stranger walk into this patients room and deliver her baby!  That was my hard work that had got her to 10cm and pushing… I had pushed her for nearly 2 hours… I was going to finish it.  If you can’t tell I am pretty subborn.  Incredibly stubborn.  Just ask Bri.

So I took lots of sitting and standing breaks.  I knew something was up but we nurses also think we are a lot smarter than we really are and I convinced myself I would be fine until 7.  I called my very good friend/OBGYN at 7:00 after I took my blood pressure that was incredibly high which I had suspected.  He was a little upset that I had kept working but needless to say he rushed in and took excellent care of me.    He loaded me up with narcotics to help knock out my head ache and rule out that I wasn’t have a migraine.  Well…. the picture painted itself very quickly and before long I found myself on Magnesium and in bed praying my little baby could hold on for 5 more weeks to make it to her due date, I knew I couldn’t but I also knew every hour counted…. so I laid in bed on the monitor until my little Calli’s heart rate was concerning enough we couldn’t wait any longer.  My mom had that “mother’s moment” and had woke up and insisted on coming down to Laramie, a 7 hour drive, without me even knowing.    By the time they prepped me for surgery I didn’t even care that I was having a baby, Magnesium had made me a loopy sick woman and I felt moments away from death.  My head felt like it would split open at any moment and I had this horrendous side pain, complications of your brain and liver swelling so they tell me.  I just couldn’t think clearly but yet I was very excited to see my sweet little Calli.  Once I got to the OR my adrenaline must have hit becuase I felt like I was floating on a cloud, I was so incredibly happy and I couldn’t wait to see this little prize that had been hidden from me for months!!!  My friend/OB was my surgeon which my husband and I loved, it made the situation so much better for us having someone we trusted with EVERYTHING  although I am sure he felt a little under pressure.

The procedure started and I didn’t feel a thing.  I was totally comfortable and even laughing, seriously laughing to the point where they said “try holding still, we are operating on you Tina!” I had seen so many c-sections I knew the time was getting close when they asked for the bladder blade so I told Brian to stand up and he did and then I looked up to see the biggest smile on my husbands face and in the background hear a little wet cry and all my friends and coworkers ooooh and awwww as they cut the cord.  Just a few minutes after delivery my sweet friend Laurie brought my little Calli to see me for the first time.  My initial thought was “she looks just like me!!! SHE IS BEAUTIFUL”  It was so amazing I cant even explain the emotion I felt.  They took Calli to the nursery since she was a wee bit early and I then fell asleep!  Yep, I guess when the started the Magnesium again it took pretty quickly!  The best news was to hear my mom made it just in time and was there right after they wheeled me into the OR. We stayed the next 5? days in the hospital it was very fuzzy for me, I was slow to recover due to my PIH but all is well that ends well.  I had the support of all my family and friends which was so nice.  I would do it all again, and again and again to get my little blondie that has always pulled on Brian and I’s heart strings with all her might. She is so full of love and creativity!  Love you Calli!

Meet our dog Daisy, who decided to tag along for pictures!